They said your feelings will fade as times pass by not seeing his face.
Well, I guess they were wrong.
Friday, 7 November 2014
Wednesday, 5 November 2014
Fear not or regret later
SPM jeubal!
Assalamualaikum.
it's the third day of SPM. harini paper Mathematics.
Takut. Paper BM and BI cam hancur je.
Uarghhh I should kill myself and die in misery!!!!
Siapa tengok Nae Il Cantabile (Tomorrow Cantabile)?
It's actually a K-drama. I watch it to release the steam from stress of SPM. lgpun my most favourite actor is in it.
Versatile and capable actor, Joo Won!
Actually, I would like to highlight the main character's trauma. She hates scary teachers because she used to have one when she was a kid. Being called 'leftover', not many recognize her extraordinary talent. However, opportunities come and the professors in her college want to train her to be the world-famous pianist.
But the thing is, the best piano teacher is a scary teacher.
Honestly, I kinda have this kind of fear inside me. I always give up my dream because of scary teachers.
And I did gave up my actual dream recently.
(and change it to what my parents would love me to be)
I'm not putting the blame on my teacher. No, teachers do nothing but to teach and develop me to become better.
But then, I guess the problem is me.
Too scared to do wrongly in what I'm good at and love to do. Consequently, I lose interest. Typical antic of a type O blood.
Anyway, please watch for those who don't because u definitely will be captivated by soothing and impeccable sounds of classical music!
Assalamualaikum.
it's the third day of SPM. harini paper Mathematics.
Takut. Paper BM and BI cam hancur je.
Uarghhh I should kill myself and die in misery!!!!
Siapa tengok Nae Il Cantabile (Tomorrow Cantabile)?
It's actually a K-drama. I watch it to release the steam from stress of SPM. lgpun my most favourite actor is in it.
Versatile and capable actor, Joo Won!
But the thing is, the best piano teacher is a scary teacher.
Honestly, I kinda have this kind of fear inside me. I always give up my dream because of scary teachers.
And I did gave up my actual dream recently.
(and change it to what my parents would love me to be)
I'm not putting the blame on my teacher. No, teachers do nothing but to teach and develop me to become better.
But then, I guess the problem is me.
Too scared to do wrongly in what I'm good at and love to do. Consequently, I lose interest. Typical antic of a type O blood.
Anyway, please watch for those who don't because u definitely will be captivated by soothing and impeccable sounds of classical music!
Friday, 24 October 2014
Minggu depan SPM dan ada orang cari pasal
Assalamualaikum
Next week saya digraduasikan dan 4 days later saya akan sit paper BM untuk SPM.
Cuak tak?
Penat dah rasa cuak, takut, seram sejuk, stressed, nak muntah..semua dah rasa
Sekarang just chillax dan do my best.
Oh anyway, the reason I'm writing an entry is to voice out my dissatisfaction towards this one particular guy.
Why?
Takde pe..
Just nak cakap, I hate orang yang tahpape. Any relationship is all about mutualism which involve give and take. Waima friendship pun. In my case friendship lah since tak kawin lagi besides I have no issues with my parents. Dah kalau asyik aku yg yield and approach first, tak ke things look awkward? Please, do have some common sense.
Kata kawan. Janganlah selfish
Nah Youngjae untuk ceriakan hari-harimu
Next week saya digraduasikan dan 4 days later saya akan sit paper BM untuk SPM.
Cuak tak?
Penat dah rasa cuak, takut, seram sejuk, stressed, nak muntah..semua dah rasa
Sekarang just chillax dan do my best.
Oh anyway, the reason I'm writing an entry is to voice out my dissatisfaction towards this one particular guy.
Why?
Takde pe..
Just nak cakap, I hate orang yang tahpape. Any relationship is all about mutualism which involve give and take. Waima friendship pun. In my case friendship lah since tak kawin lagi besides I have no issues with my parents. Dah kalau asyik aku yg yield and approach first, tak ke things look awkward? Please, do have some common sense.
Kata kawan. Janganlah selfish
Nah Youngjae untuk ceriakan hari-harimu
Doakan SPM Nur Liyana Safwanah ok? Assalamualaikum
Saturday, 20 September 2014
Fangirling mode activated
Assalamualaikum
Gyaaahhh~~~
Seperti mana yang telah disebut dalam title entry kali ini..yeah I'm fangirling woot hahaha
Warning. Stop judging and please don't be stereotype
Why?
Because K-POP haters always label K-POP fans as obsessive, immature, day-dreamer, perverts and stuffs. Oh yeah, gays too (for male fans)
TBH I haven't really care much about K-idols since I was 15 because I was maturing and I was changing to be better so I thought that a fan girl image didn't suit my new image. In fact it is. Tell me where on Earth will be people who wear tudung labuh and abaya and go cheering for their favourite idols in the airports? Trust me. There won't be any.
Nevertheless I'm not saying I'm that kind of fan. I'm just a K-drama addict (can't live without one) who loves arts.
Music is an art. Beauty too. Do not forget dance. K-idols just got all these. What can I do other than loving them? (Haha well said!)
The latest idol group that I've been fangirling these days is this
Gyaaahhh~~~
Seperti mana yang telah disebut dalam title entry kali ini..yeah I'm fangirling woot hahaha
Warning. Stop judging and please don't be stereotype
Why?
Because K-POP haters always label K-POP fans as obsessive, immature, day-dreamer, perverts and stuffs. Oh yeah, gays too (for male fans)
TBH I haven't really care much about K-idols since I was 15 because I was maturing and I was changing to be better so I thought that a fan girl image didn't suit my new image. In fact it is. Tell me where on Earth will be people who wear tudung labuh and abaya and go cheering for their favourite idols in the airports? Trust me. There won't be any.
Nevertheless I'm not saying I'm that kind of fan. I'm just a K-drama addict (can't live without one) who loves arts.
Music is an art. Beauty too. Do not forget dance. K-idols just got all these. What can I do other than loving them? (Haha well said!)
The latest idol group that I've been fangirling these days is this
GOT7
These boys are too dorky and very good in martial arts dance. They have addictive laugh too. I don't really fall into their sweetness or cuteness or talents or handsome faces (must admit they are really handsome) but I think these guys deserve attentions. Maybe because they have all things I mentioned but nah...it's not that really.
The thing is, this is my way to get out of stress. I've been facing worst days ever in my life where I wake up in the morning finding myself saying
"What will you do if your SPM is not great? Will u disappoint your parents that bad?"
So, watching these boys in Real GOT7 where they joke and laugh like hell (seriously my tummy hurts just by watching the way they laugh), I found myself laughing and smiling again.
I believe one day I might be neglecting these boys because I am already happy at that time. When this thing actually happens later, I hope this entry will still be here so that I won't forget who are my life saviour.
Thank you guys for making me smile.
SPOILER: just found out that BamBam and Yugyeom is younger than me by months (born is same year). I'm old now! :(
Saturday, 13 September 2014
Life is but to be appreciated
Assalamualaikum semua
Gloomy..gloomy days they were and gloomy days ahead..I suppose
What a dull muqaddimah. I'm sorry. Let me start again
Whoa this bitter medicine just kicked off my taste bud. Dying from the bitterness already.
Yorobun, annyeoghaseyo..lamo dok nuleh yo.
Just finished watching a drama. IDK when will it be ending but I hope it's a 40 something-episode-length drama. Why? Because I can enjoy it after my hell-like SPM!!!
Yes, hell-like. Why? Because I'm doing something that I don't enjoy.
STUDYING THINGS I'M NOT GOOD IN.
TBH, I've been keeping this since I was in Form 4. Why bother getting yourself into pure science stream when you know the subjects require your calculative skills and that is the biggest weakness of yours?!! (other than not being able to be feminine enough) but for the sake of my interest in Biology and pride of being a straight A's student in PMR, I dared myself to enter the hell.
...and wallah! here I am. shattered into pieces already.
blah blah blah. SPM is only a month away and you're saying this now? die already lah..your trial result wasn't that great anyway. Now you get it huh? Being shameful of yourself, keep thinking you're useless brat and having to look up to everyone because they're so much better than you, haven't you had enough? Where's your sense of motivation? Why can't u be motivated?!!
Because I am a realistic person. I look up only on things that I believe I can achieve and do things that I'm good in. My dream is not that big either.
I want to fly to London, study TeSL there, be a proud daughter of my parents, repay their kindness and sacrifices and give happiness to my family.
What I want to do? Simple. I just want to be a good teacher. No matter what title I hold, lecturer or just your common English teacher, I want to be someone that can contribute and give love to others while doing thing that I love, language.
What I want is just to enjoy what I do and find happiness in even simplest and tiniest thing in my life.
Because life is to be appreciated.
...and our destiny won't end here. We still have the world Hereafter.
Gloomy..gloomy days they were and gloomy days ahead..I suppose
What a dull muqaddimah. I'm sorry. Let me start again
Whoa this bitter medicine just kicked off my taste bud. Dying from the bitterness already.
Yorobun, annyeoghaseyo..lamo dok nuleh yo.
Just finished watching a drama. IDK when will it be ending but I hope it's a 40 something-episode-length drama. Why? Because I can enjoy it after my hell-like SPM!!!
Yes, hell-like. Why? Because I'm doing something that I don't enjoy.
STUDYING THINGS I'M NOT GOOD IN.
TBH, I've been keeping this since I was in Form 4. Why bother getting yourself into pure science stream when you know the subjects require your calculative skills and that is the biggest weakness of yours?!! (other than not being able to be feminine enough) but for the sake of my interest in Biology and pride of being a straight A's student in PMR, I dared myself to enter the hell.
...and wallah! here I am. shattered into pieces already.
blah blah blah. SPM is only a month away and you're saying this now? die already lah..your trial result wasn't that great anyway. Now you get it huh? Being shameful of yourself, keep thinking you're useless brat and having to look up to everyone because they're so much better than you, haven't you had enough? Where's your sense of motivation? Why can't u be motivated?!!
Because I am a realistic person. I look up only on things that I believe I can achieve and do things that I'm good in. My dream is not that big either.
I want to fly to London, study TeSL there, be a proud daughter of my parents, repay their kindness and sacrifices and give happiness to my family.
What I want to do? Simple. I just want to be a good teacher. No matter what title I hold, lecturer or just your common English teacher, I want to be someone that can contribute and give love to others while doing thing that I love, language.
What I want is just to enjoy what I do and find happiness in even simplest and tiniest thing in my life.
Because life is to be appreciated.
...and our destiny won't end here. We still have the world Hereafter.
Monday, 21 July 2014
Orang tua-tua cakap jangan ketawa banyak
Assalamualaikum..
Minggu lepas dah exam pra-trial. Cerita dia, I wasn't ready at all so I'm getting ready to accept any result later.
Bahasa Inggeris terabur. Lantak pi
Orang tua-tua kata jangan ketawa banyak nanti menangis. Semalam ketawa banyak, tak lama lepas tu rasa nak nangis.
Perkara 1.
Iftar bersama Team Drama semalam. Kesayangan. I handled the event and alhamdulillah it went smoothly. We were having fun and tetibe tak terjangka pun ada sorang makhluk Allah berbuka di tempat yang sama. Mula-mula terkejut. Lepastu relaks. Buat muka biasa. Gurau-gurau dengan Pae. Tutup-tutup muka konon malu dengan makhluk Allah tu sedangkan niat cuma bergurau dengan Pae kat sebelah. Harap dia tak perasan.
Entah kenapa balik rumah rasa nak menangis. Mungkin sedih atau marah. Yaa..aku marah dengan dia atas perbuatan dia yang mengaibkan aku. Aku rasa maruah sebagai perempuan dicarik-carik macam tu je.
Kau tahu, budak sekolah kau yang sampaikan autograph tu dah pandang aku macam perempuan jijik. Sama je macam peminat-peminat kau yang aku kategorikan sebagai lalat-lalat yang menghurung sampah. Tak cakap kau sampah tapi sifat kerumun tu yang layak dilabel sampah. Aku tahu kau ada reputasi tapi kau jangan lupa siapa aku kat sekolah aku. Nama bapa aku tu puas aku jaga dengan baik. Kau rosakkan macam tu je depan budak sekolah kau.
Aku tak tahu macam mana aku akan respond bila raya nanti kau minta maaf. Aku jenis menangis bila marah. Aku harap kau tak muncul dah depan aku. Cukup sampai masa tu berlalu dan aku boleh lupakan kata-kata kau yang macam pisau tu.
Yup, aku kecewa dengan kau. Aku tak expect akan ada seorang lagi kawan yang hancurkan hati aku yang ikhlas berkawan. Titik. Sampai sini je. Aku serik.
Perkara 2
Aku ada 'anak ikan' kat sekolah tu. Maksudnya budak lower form yang saja-saja buat crush. Setiap tahun tukar. Dari form 2 lagi. Saja, hiburkan hati. Kita kan taknak couple? Suka boleh kan? Tahun ni, aku dapat tahu raaaaaaaaaaaamai suka 'anak ikan' aku sejak aku heret dia masuk drama. K mengaku budak drama.
Bila dah tahu, alaahaaaiiiii tak special-nya lah dia tu. Pula hari ni dengar nama dia naik dalam senarai budak couple kat sekolah tu. Dahlah awek dia tu tak comel. Jatuh value dia di mata aku.
Mulalah teringat adik angkat kat Johor yang baik dan alim tu. Tak sangka ada adik angkat yang way much better than crushes 'anak ikan' aku selama 4 tahun ni.
Penat dah main-mainkan hati sendiri. Ikhlas, dipersia. Suka, dikecewa. Hidup memang satu ujian.
Minggu lepas dah exam pra-trial. Cerita dia, I wasn't ready at all so I'm getting ready to accept any result later.
Bahasa Inggeris terabur. Lantak pi
Orang tua-tua kata jangan ketawa banyak nanti menangis. Semalam ketawa banyak, tak lama lepas tu rasa nak nangis.
Perkara 1.
Iftar bersama Team Drama semalam. Kesayangan. I handled the event and alhamdulillah it went smoothly. We were having fun and tetibe tak terjangka pun ada sorang makhluk Allah berbuka di tempat yang sama. Mula-mula terkejut. Lepastu relaks. Buat muka biasa. Gurau-gurau dengan Pae. Tutup-tutup muka konon malu dengan makhluk Allah tu sedangkan niat cuma bergurau dengan Pae kat sebelah. Harap dia tak perasan.
Entah kenapa balik rumah rasa nak menangis. Mungkin sedih atau marah. Yaa..aku marah dengan dia atas perbuatan dia yang mengaibkan aku. Aku rasa maruah sebagai perempuan dicarik-carik macam tu je.
Kau tahu, budak sekolah kau yang sampaikan autograph tu dah pandang aku macam perempuan jijik. Sama je macam peminat-peminat kau yang aku kategorikan sebagai lalat-lalat yang menghurung sampah. Tak cakap kau sampah tapi sifat kerumun tu yang layak dilabel sampah. Aku tahu kau ada reputasi tapi kau jangan lupa siapa aku kat sekolah aku. Nama bapa aku tu puas aku jaga dengan baik. Kau rosakkan macam tu je depan budak sekolah kau.
Aku tak tahu macam mana aku akan respond bila raya nanti kau minta maaf. Aku jenis menangis bila marah. Aku harap kau tak muncul dah depan aku. Cukup sampai masa tu berlalu dan aku boleh lupakan kata-kata kau yang macam pisau tu.
Yup, aku kecewa dengan kau. Aku tak expect akan ada seorang lagi kawan yang hancurkan hati aku yang ikhlas berkawan. Titik. Sampai sini je. Aku serik.
Perkara 2
Aku ada 'anak ikan' kat sekolah tu. Maksudnya budak lower form yang saja-saja buat crush. Setiap tahun tukar. Dari form 2 lagi. Saja, hiburkan hati. Kita kan taknak couple? Suka boleh kan? Tahun ni, aku dapat tahu raaaaaaaaaaaamai suka 'anak ikan' aku sejak aku heret dia masuk drama. K mengaku budak drama.
Bila dah tahu, alaahaaaiiiii tak special-nya lah dia tu. Pula hari ni dengar nama dia naik dalam senarai budak couple kat sekolah tu. Dahlah awek dia tu tak comel. Jatuh value dia di mata aku.
Mulalah teringat adik angkat kat Johor yang baik dan alim tu. Tak sangka ada adik angkat yang way much better than crushes 'anak ikan' aku selama 4 tahun ni.
Penat dah main-mainkan hati sendiri. Ikhlas, dipersia. Suka, dikecewa. Hidup memang satu ujian.
Monday, 14 July 2014
Dah matang dah.
Assalamualaikum
Berganjak ke usia 17 tahun, banyak proses yang dilalui
Proses kematangan
Belajar untuk hadapi realiti. SPM tu realiti kehidupan. Satu ujian yang kita kalau boleh taknak hadapi sebab perit mak aii tapi kena juga hadap. Sebab apa? Sebab kita dah tak boleh lari dari masalah.
Dulu, form 4..tak siap homework taknak datang sekolah.
Stress, taknak datang sekolah.
Gaduh, taknak datang sekolah.
Sekarang, form 5..tak siap homework pandai-pandai curi masa antara pertukaran cikgu untuk siapkan
Tak datang sekolah, ada subjek penting. Addmath, Kimia..kalau tak masuk cerita dia peninglah bila ulang kaji.
Dah masuk 17 tahun mula simpan misi dan visi kehidupan. Nak masuk universiti mana, nak ambil course apa, nak jadi apa..
Tapi satu perkara seronok bila dah masuk 17 tahun, kita boleh bincang hal dewasa dengan ayah, dengan ibu. Perancangan untuk break 3 bulan lepas SPM, perancangan untuk qada' tidur dan masa bermain yang tertangguh sebelum SPM.
Paling rasa dah matang, bila kita mula cakap pasal kahwin dengan ibu. Eh gatal. Haa, mentaliti tu tolong perbetul okey?
Ibu kata doa dengan Allah awal-awal moga jodoh kita ni apa yang kita rasa kita nak. Tak salah nak demand asal rasa diri tu layak untuk demand. Ibu kena ajar anak sulung dia jaga diri, betulkan niat, pilih betul-betul. Universiti dan dunia luar banyak dugaan. Ibu taknak sehari masuk U, esok telefon nak kahwin.
"Sebenarnya jodoh kita ni kita boleh rasa. Macam ibu, ibu tak suka lelaki merokok. Padahal masa tu ibu berkawan dengan lelaki yang hisap rokok. Alhamdulillah, ibu jumpa lelaki yang tak hisap rokok"
So, selain kriteria seorang suami yang baik iaitu beragama, semat satu lagi sifat yang kita rasa sesuai untuk kita supaya kita tak mudah terleka dengan lelaki-lelaki lain yang tak menepati ciri-ciri yang kita nak.
As for me...erm, biarlah simpan dalam hati. Special sikit ciri tu.
Tapi kalau ibu dan ayah nak carikan, silakan...anakmu mengalu-alukan. Moga pilihan yang diredhai membawa keberkatan.
Sekian :)
Berganjak ke usia 17 tahun, banyak proses yang dilalui
Proses kematangan
Belajar untuk hadapi realiti. SPM tu realiti kehidupan. Satu ujian yang kita kalau boleh taknak hadapi sebab perit mak aii tapi kena juga hadap. Sebab apa? Sebab kita dah tak boleh lari dari masalah.
Dulu, form 4..tak siap homework taknak datang sekolah.
Stress, taknak datang sekolah.
Gaduh, taknak datang sekolah.
Sekarang, form 5..tak siap homework pandai-pandai curi masa antara pertukaran cikgu untuk siapkan
Tak datang sekolah, ada subjek penting. Addmath, Kimia..kalau tak masuk cerita dia peninglah bila ulang kaji.
Dah masuk 17 tahun mula simpan misi dan visi kehidupan. Nak masuk universiti mana, nak ambil course apa, nak jadi apa..
Tapi satu perkara seronok bila dah masuk 17 tahun, kita boleh bincang hal dewasa dengan ayah, dengan ibu. Perancangan untuk break 3 bulan lepas SPM, perancangan untuk qada' tidur dan masa bermain yang tertangguh sebelum SPM.
Paling rasa dah matang, bila kita mula cakap pasal kahwin dengan ibu. Eh gatal. Haa, mentaliti tu tolong perbetul okey?
Ibu kata doa dengan Allah awal-awal moga jodoh kita ni apa yang kita rasa kita nak. Tak salah nak demand asal rasa diri tu layak untuk demand. Ibu kena ajar anak sulung dia jaga diri, betulkan niat, pilih betul-betul. Universiti dan dunia luar banyak dugaan. Ibu taknak sehari masuk U, esok telefon nak kahwin.
"Sebenarnya jodoh kita ni kita boleh rasa. Macam ibu, ibu tak suka lelaki merokok. Padahal masa tu ibu berkawan dengan lelaki yang hisap rokok. Alhamdulillah, ibu jumpa lelaki yang tak hisap rokok"
So, selain kriteria seorang suami yang baik iaitu beragama, semat satu lagi sifat yang kita rasa sesuai untuk kita supaya kita tak mudah terleka dengan lelaki-lelaki lain yang tak menepati ciri-ciri yang kita nak.
As for me...erm, biarlah simpan dalam hati. Special sikit ciri tu.
Tapi kalau ibu dan ayah nak carikan, silakan...anakmu mengalu-alukan. Moga pilihan yang diredhai membawa keberkatan.
Sekian :)
Tuesday, 8 July 2014
Selfish
Assalamualaikum
Dah mula bergolak balik hati ni. Serba serbi buat tak betul. Yelah, perbuatan diselangi dengan rasa bersalah.
Rasa bersalah sebenarnya bila ada seorang kawan lama yang baik dengan aku dulu tegur tapi kita buat dekkk je. Kenapa? Kita tak suka apa dia dah buat. Tapi he has no idea on what's happening. Dia tetap senyum and panggil
"Liyana...Liyana...Yana...pandanglah sini..Liyana..cakaplah dengan aku"
Dalam hati,
"Derrr...janganlah buat aku rasa macam watak antagonis kat sini"
BTW derr, aku just nak kau tau yang...kau selfish.
Kau nak kasih sayang dia.
Kau nak perhatian dia.
Kau nak dia.
Tapi sayang semua tu milik orang lain. Tapi kau dah curi semua benda tu.
Kasih sayang dia, kau dapat.
Perhatian dia, kau dapat.
Dia, sorry kau tak dapat.
Dan aku berada di pihak yang menganalisis perkara dari dua-dua belah pihak. Kau dan yang berhak. Sayang aku simpati lebih kepada yang berhak.
Kesimpulannya, bagi aku masa nak cakap dengan kau. I'm afraid that I'd speak up the truth to you and everything will be ruined. You'll be in despair again and come up with ridiculous decisions. Penat dengan sikap kengkonon matang kau tu.
Dah mula bergolak balik hati ni. Serba serbi buat tak betul. Yelah, perbuatan diselangi dengan rasa bersalah.
Rasa bersalah sebenarnya bila ada seorang kawan lama yang baik dengan aku dulu tegur tapi kita buat dekkk je. Kenapa? Kita tak suka apa dia dah buat. Tapi he has no idea on what's happening. Dia tetap senyum and panggil
"Liyana...Liyana...Yana...pandanglah sini..Liyana..cakaplah dengan aku"
Dalam hati,
"Derrr...janganlah buat aku rasa macam watak antagonis kat sini"
BTW derr, aku just nak kau tau yang...kau selfish.
Kau nak kasih sayang dia.
Kau nak perhatian dia.
Kau nak dia.
Tapi sayang semua tu milik orang lain. Tapi kau dah curi semua benda tu.
Kasih sayang dia, kau dapat.
Perhatian dia, kau dapat.
Dia, sorry kau tak dapat.
Dan aku berada di pihak yang menganalisis perkara dari dua-dua belah pihak. Kau dan yang berhak. Sayang aku simpati lebih kepada yang berhak.
Kesimpulannya, bagi aku masa nak cakap dengan kau. I'm afraid that I'd speak up the truth to you and everything will be ruined. You'll be in despair again and come up with ridiculous decisions. Penat dengan sikap kengkonon matang kau tu.
Thursday, 26 June 2014
Cinta hati baru
Dah bulan 6.
Sekejap je masa berlalu kan?
4 5 bulan dah SPM. Yet here, I'm surfing the Internet dengan laghanya.
Ah, bila lagi nak relaks. Hectic much dah dunia aku 2 minggu ni.
Result mid-year exam dah dapat. Tak dapat capai target tapi alhamdulillah ada banyak peningkatan. Hope so much for a huge leap of success for the upcoming pre-trial. Tatowt sangat ni actually.
Yet, in a midst of busy life and chaotic days I still managed to find some times doing things I love and had been my passion since I first entered it in 2011.
English drama! :D
Tapi kalini tak berlakon. Watak yang ditawarkan tak sesuai dengan imej baru Nur Liyana Safwanah. uhuk uhuk koya sangat. However amanah kalini berat. I'm the director yawww! Managing director which means hal ehwal actor and prop people terletak atas bahu gua.
This drama seriously reminds me to days when I was Puteh, one of the characters in Tenggang drama. Our relationship was like families. We were close and we cared a lot to each other. Sekarang ramai yang dah bersepah-sepah. Melaka, Jengka and many other places. Ambil tahu juga pasal diri masing-masing tapi dah lama tak dengar khabar berita. :(
Tak sangka boleh kembali berkasih sayang dalam 1 keluarga yang besar. Berasa jadi sunbae yang care to hoobae. Walaupun ada 2 je junior perempuan.
Although we were not able to tie a deeper relationship as a drama family, hope we appreciate our meeting and may our moments remain sweet in our hearts. Beyond Words drama team, hwaiting! :D
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| Eddy's (which was the name of Danial's character in the drama) birthday celebration. |
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| Unfortunately Mother (by Ieda) was sick and couldn't join us. Syafakillah our Mother ! |
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| 2 big families. Love em' |
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| Selfie at the competition venue |
Life is a song - sing it. Life is a game - play it. Life is a challenge - meet it. Life is a dream - realize it. Life is a sacrifice - offer it. Life is love - enjoy it.
Monday, 12 May 2014
Jari nak patah
Assalamualaikum
Musim exam. Wuu..exam tak exam I'm still lazy-ing myself...TV couching..surfing..doing weird stuffs such as watching make-up tutorials?
Okay, snap out of it.
Today was the examination day for History. Paper 2 and Paper 3 which had made my precious fingers to nearly broken like seriously I've been writing non-stop for 2 hours and half + another 3 hours for Paper 3. Homaigawd this is the reality of SPM candidates. I know the others understand this feeling too, right?
Fuh! BTW I really missed hitting the alphabets on the keyboards and writing my thoughts and feelings. It had been 2 months when I last wrote something up here. I did write something on my personal diary but it's too private to share here with the readers. (is there even a reader here?) Well, yeah. I think I've been babbling to myself what happened, what I felt and bla bla bla and when I read it back, my impression was like,
Well then, I don't care.
Okay..back to the point on why I am here today.
My life is now as hectic as much right now. <---IDK if this phrase is correct.
Quite busy for classes and practices yet I think I got enough time be lazy-ing around, still. Hmm, that's quite confusing.
Nevertheless, when you imagine about how heavenly it'll be when all these sufferings end one day, you'll get your motivation back, get spirited and ready to go all way through the end.
That is PERSEVERANCE .
Okay byee...got to persevere well to bear sweet fruits in future. Love u all who read and wish u sweetest days ahead. Assalamualaikum ^_^
Musim exam. Wuu..exam tak exam I'm still lazy-ing myself...TV couching..surfing..doing weird stuffs such as watching make-up tutorials?
Okay, snap out of it.
Today was the examination day for History. Paper 2 and Paper 3 which had made my precious fingers to nearly broken like seriously I've been writing non-stop for 2 hours and half + another 3 hours for Paper 3. Homaigawd this is the reality of SPM candidates. I know the others understand this feeling too, right?
Fuh! BTW I really missed hitting the alphabets on the keyboards and writing my thoughts and feelings. It had been 2 months when I last wrote something up here. I did write something on my personal diary but it's too private to share here with the readers. (is there even a reader here?) Well, yeah. I think I've been babbling to myself what happened, what I felt and bla bla bla and when I read it back, my impression was like,
Okay..back to the point on why I am here today.
My life is now as hectic as much right now. <---IDK if this phrase is correct.
Quite busy for classes and practices yet I think I got enough time be lazy-ing around, still. Hmm, that's quite confusing.
Nevertheless, when you imagine about how heavenly it'll be when all these sufferings end one day, you'll get your motivation back, get spirited and ready to go all way through the end.
That is PERSEVERANCE .
Okay byee...got to persevere well to bear sweet fruits in future. Love u all who read and wish u sweetest days ahead. Assalamualaikum ^_^
Saturday, 15 March 2014
It's already March
March,
Banyak benda berlaku
Nak cerita satu-satu ada pengsan depan laptop
Satulah..tahun ni bagai ada satu ketakutan
Ketakutan kerana belum bersedia..hmm
March, UPT1 dah bermula
Nazar dipasak, azam ditanam
Moga Allah bantu
Banyak benda berlaku
Nak cerita satu-satu ada pengsan depan laptop
Satulah..tahun ni bagai ada satu ketakutan
Ketakutan kerana belum bersedia..hmm
March, UPT1 dah bermula
Nazar dipasak, azam ditanam
Moga Allah bantu
Friday, 17 January 2014
Baca jangan tak baca! Muchos gracias kerana automatically turut doakan saya :D
1. 9A SPM
2. A+ in English, Biology, Pendidikan Agama Islam, Bahasa Melayu dan History.
3. Study overseas
4. English teacher
Ya Allah ya Tuhanku, kurniakanlah nikmat-Mu dengan memberikan Nur Liyana Safwanah bt Azman 9A+ dalam SPM serta dapat membanggakan ibu-bapa dan guru-gurunya.
2. A+ in English, Biology, Pendidikan Agama Islam, Bahasa Melayu dan History.
3. Study overseas
4. English teacher
Ya Allah ya Tuhanku, kurniakanlah nikmat-Mu dengan memberikan Nur Liyana Safwanah bt Azman 9A+ dalam SPM serta dapat membanggakan ibu-bapa dan guru-gurunya.
Saturday, 11 January 2014
Happy Birthday to me
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
Assalamualaikum warahmatullahiwabarakatuh
Hello hai it's 2014 finally and I'm facing SPM this year! :( Seramnya. Anyway, I need to spend a lil' bit of my time on writing an entry for my special birthday edition! :D
Nothing much, tak ramai yang wish because I private kan tarikh lahir and gender kan FB. Twitter pun bukannya spesies kecoh-kecoh pasal birthday orang ni. Hee. Tapi tahun ni best sangat birthday saya!
Aniq and Syahmi belanja kat Jentayu Kopitiam. To tell the truth I don't feel very well. My stomach lah buat hal. Still having diarrhea because of my migraine pills. Side effect lah kiranya. So I don't eat rice. Jumaat I forced myself to eat some because I didn't eat for two days already. Hari-hari sebelum tu lagilah teruk memang apa yang makan keluar balik. Sedih betul. Luckily lah Jumaat tu I was okay tapi malam tu nak makan nasi memang tak boleh semula. Sob sob.
Semalam, was my birthday! So me, Fina, Amir and my sister Diyanah went for a date kat bandar Muadzam Shah yang terrrrchenntaaa. Sebelum tu makan kat Jentayu dulu. Aniq and Syahmi belanja saya je sepatutnya but then I asked them to treat for kitorang berempat (me, Fina, Amir and Diyanah) punya beverages. Makan kitorang bayar sendiri. Alhamdulillah my diarrhea got better sebab tak keluar balik apa yang saya makan that day. Syukur. Anyway, it was an exciting and a fun outing. Seriously. Sorry takde gambar. Masing-masing tak pakai fon mahal. Seriously.
Then, malam tu a wish from someone unexpected menjengah fon my mom. It was my ex-boyfriend's mom. Terkejut Ya Allah! Makcik tu memang baik dengan saya sebab saya memang selalu fight result dengan ex-bf saya tu dulu. Tapi dia tak tahu kitorang PERNAH couple dulu. Cerita lama. Tapi terharulah jugak...
then...akhirnya someone yang ditunggu-tunggu call juga. It was Suhail, anak Teacher Shima yang sekolah kat SHAH Pekan and muda 2 tahun dari saya. Borak borak and he sang a birthday song for me. Untunglah suara sedap and penyanyi sekolah! But rather than that, I was very thankful he remembered my birthday. Hee :D
Anyway, ni birthday presents yang I dapat. Teacher said hers will be coming soon. Malam ni katanya..
Memula I asked my mom supaya tak payah beli cake. I nak ikan patin bakar tempoyak. My favourite but since I don't eat rice really well my mom belikan juga benda ni. Thanks a lot. Chocolate moist cake. Yummy :D
Ni hadiah dari orang Kuantan. POLAR BEAR!! Yeah :D Tahun lepas dia bagi buku juga. Tahu dah kot saya ni hantu buku.
Front page view. You can't imagine punyalah dia khianat even nak bagi hadiah pun dia balut berapa lapis and siap kotak padahal isi dia apa je...sabar jelah kat kawan kita sorang ni
More photos on my Instagram @yanawanaa. Thanks for the wishes! :D May you all lead this year with happiness and barakah in shaa Allah.
Assalamualaikum warahmatullahiwabarakatuh
Hello hai it's 2014 finally and I'm facing SPM this year! :( Seramnya. Anyway, I need to spend a lil' bit of my time on writing an entry for my special birthday edition! :D
Nothing much, tak ramai yang wish because I private kan tarikh lahir and gender kan FB. Twitter pun bukannya spesies kecoh-kecoh pasal birthday orang ni. Hee. Tapi tahun ni best sangat birthday saya!
Aniq and Syahmi belanja kat Jentayu Kopitiam. To tell the truth I don't feel very well. My stomach lah buat hal. Still having diarrhea because of my migraine pills. Side effect lah kiranya. So I don't eat rice. Jumaat I forced myself to eat some because I didn't eat for two days already. Hari-hari sebelum tu lagilah teruk memang apa yang makan keluar balik. Sedih betul. Luckily lah Jumaat tu I was okay tapi malam tu nak makan nasi memang tak boleh semula. Sob sob.
Semalam, was my birthday! So me, Fina, Amir and my sister Diyanah went for a date kat bandar Muadzam Shah yang terrrrchenntaaa. Sebelum tu makan kat Jentayu dulu. Aniq and Syahmi belanja saya je sepatutnya but then I asked them to treat for kitorang berempat (me, Fina, Amir and Diyanah) punya beverages. Makan kitorang bayar sendiri. Alhamdulillah my diarrhea got better sebab tak keluar balik apa yang saya makan that day. Syukur. Anyway, it was an exciting and a fun outing. Seriously. Sorry takde gambar. Masing-masing tak pakai fon mahal. Seriously.
Then, malam tu a wish from someone unexpected menjengah fon my mom. It was my ex-boyfriend's mom. Terkejut Ya Allah! Makcik tu memang baik dengan saya sebab saya memang selalu fight result dengan ex-bf saya tu dulu. Tapi dia tak tahu kitorang PERNAH couple dulu. Cerita lama. Tapi terharulah jugak...
then...akhirnya someone yang ditunggu-tunggu call juga. It was Suhail, anak Teacher Shima yang sekolah kat SHAH Pekan and muda 2 tahun dari saya. Borak borak and he sang a birthday song for me. Untunglah suara sedap and penyanyi sekolah! But rather than that, I was very thankful he remembered my birthday. Hee :D
Anyway, ni birthday presents yang I dapat. Teacher said hers will be coming soon. Malam ni katanya..
Memula I asked my mom supaya tak payah beli cake. I nak ikan patin bakar tempoyak. My favourite but since I don't eat rice really well my mom belikan juga benda ni. Thanks a lot. Chocolate moist cake. Yummy :D
Front page view. You can't imagine punyalah dia khianat even nak bagi hadiah pun dia balut berapa lapis and siap kotak padahal isi dia apa je...sabar jelah kat kawan kita sorang ni
More photos on my Instagram @yanawanaa. Thanks for the wishes! :D May you all lead this year with happiness and barakah in shaa Allah.
Tuesday, 24 December 2013
gedebush gedebush gedebang pum pum bang bang
Assalamualaikum
title pelik kan? that describes well how i'm feeling right now
Orang kata hati ini berbolak balik sifatnya. Hati saya? Lagilah berbolak balik malahan mudah dibadai ombak perasaan.
Dua tiga salah faham saya fikir positif. Tiga empat saya dah mula lelah...dan kecewa. Pengakhirannya? Saya beralih arah..hati yang pada mulanya terlalu sayang dan cinta terpaksa melepaskan...
Yang baru tak seindah yang diimpi..setiap hubungan itu pasti diduga. lautan persahabatan yang perlu kami semua lalui tak mudah. dalam meniti usia kematangan kami perlukan sokongan serta kegembiraan. benar..tak mudah.
Luka lama dek yang namanya PERSAHABATAN di hati saya tiada siapa yang tahu. hatta yang paling dekat serta yang biasa menyimpan rahsia di kalbu pun tak tahu..
I LOVE WHAT WE CALL FRIENDSHIPS..
NO MATTER HOW HARD SOMEONE IS CRYING,
THERE'LL BE ALWAYS SOME OTHERS WHO WILL MAKE JOKES AND ENCOURAGE EACH OTHER
do I need to distinct myself so that I can know how much do I value to those who announced that they love me?
title pelik kan? that describes well how i'm feeling right now
Orang kata hati ini berbolak balik sifatnya. Hati saya? Lagilah berbolak balik malahan mudah dibadai ombak perasaan.
Dua tiga salah faham saya fikir positif. Tiga empat saya dah mula lelah...dan kecewa. Pengakhirannya? Saya beralih arah..hati yang pada mulanya terlalu sayang dan cinta terpaksa melepaskan...
Yang baru tak seindah yang diimpi..setiap hubungan itu pasti diduga. lautan persahabatan yang perlu kami semua lalui tak mudah. dalam meniti usia kematangan kami perlukan sokongan serta kegembiraan. benar..tak mudah.
Luka lama dek yang namanya PERSAHABATAN di hati saya tiada siapa yang tahu. hatta yang paling dekat serta yang biasa menyimpan rahsia di kalbu pun tak tahu..
I LOVE WHAT WE CALL FRIENDSHIPS..
NO MATTER HOW HARD SOMEONE IS CRYING,
THERE'LL BE ALWAYS SOME OTHERS WHO WILL MAKE JOKES AND ENCOURAGE EACH OTHER
do I need to distinct myself so that I can know how much do I value to those who announced that they love me?
Saturday, 21 December 2013
Jemaah Masturat
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
Assalamualaikum
Semalam saya, adik saya Diyanah dan 2 orang rakannya Fina yang juga adik Amir dan Akmar join jemaah tabligh yang datang dari Miri. Alhamdulillah, walaupun cuma sehari tapi cukup bermanfaat.
dalam ramai-ramai jemaah itu, pandangan saya sangat-sangat tertarik kepada seorang jemaah yang berbaju kurung hijau. berbadan sedikit berisi. saya pandang lama. kadang-kadang pandangan dialih tapi kerap kali saya memandangnya. wajahnya sangat keanak-anakan. muda. dalam fikiran saya,
Kebetulan Fina dan Akmar 1 group dengan jemaah tersebut semasa halaqoh. saya tanya umurnya kepada mereka..19. Teacher Shima mengiyakan. Subhanallah. dia jumpa jodohnya pada usia muda.
dalam hati, saya cukup iri hati dengan peluangnya yang dapat mendekati Allah pada usia yang cukup muda.
Me: Seriously teacher? Wow, 19 tu.
teacher: Kan? Awak nak saya doakan?
Me: Uish agak-agaklah..
balik rumah, saya terfikir. alangkah bertuahnya saya jika turut diberikan peluang keluar jemaah pada usia muda dengan cara dapat bertemu jodoh awal. tapi...ukur baju di badan sendiri. sedar-sedarlah diri. saya tak matang lagi :)
kbye. :)
Assalamualaikum
Semalam saya, adik saya Diyanah dan 2 orang rakannya Fina yang juga adik Amir dan Akmar join jemaah tabligh yang datang dari Miri. Alhamdulillah, walaupun cuma sehari tapi cukup bermanfaat.
dalam ramai-ramai jemaah itu, pandangan saya sangat-sangat tertarik kepada seorang jemaah yang berbaju kurung hijau. berbadan sedikit berisi. saya pandang lama. kadang-kadang pandangan dialih tapi kerap kali saya memandangnya. wajahnya sangat keanak-anakan. muda. dalam fikiran saya,
Mesti dia ni anak salah seorang jemaah kat sini. untungnya boleh keluar pada usia mudaa..However, setelah ditoleh kiri kanan dan hints dicari saya tidak dapat mencari sesiapa dalam kalangan jemaah yang berkemungkinan besar menjadi ibunya. hairan terdetik dalam fikiran saya. tiba-tiba pandangan saya terpaling ke arah tangan kanan jemaah itu. CINCIN! seriously saya terkejut. namun saya simpan dahulu perasaan itu sebab mungkin dia baby-face sedangkan umurnya sudah cukup sesuai untuk kahwin. husnudzon..
Kebetulan Fina dan Akmar 1 group dengan jemaah tersebut semasa halaqoh. saya tanya umurnya kepada mereka..19. Teacher Shima mengiyakan. Subhanallah. dia jumpa jodohnya pada usia muda.
dalam hati, saya cukup iri hati dengan peluangnya yang dapat mendekati Allah pada usia yang cukup muda.
Me: Seriously teacher? Wow, 19 tu.
teacher: Kan? Awak nak saya doakan?
Me: Uish agak-agaklah..
balik rumah, saya terfikir. alangkah bertuahnya saya jika turut diberikan peluang keluar jemaah pada usia muda dengan cara dapat bertemu jodoh awal. tapi...ukur baju di badan sendiri. sedar-sedarlah diri. saya tak matang lagi :)
kbye. :)
Monday, 16 December 2013
Pada suatu ketika di alam fantasi...
*Ini berlaku di alam khayalan. Di mana yang manis ditaburkan dan tak mungkin terjadi di dunia realiti*
East High School is holding a festival to celebrate the Independence Day that will be approaching soon. The school is crowded with students, teachers and visitors who come to watch performances and competitions.
Suzy and Tina walked into the school with anxiety. Suzy feels a slight growl in her stomach which means she's nervous. She knows a few people from the school. In fact, the whole school seems like to know her very well with the glares and stares from the students. She's well prepared for this. She's here for a competition, not a fight. Suzy and Tina are the participants from West High School for poems recitation competition. The school is supposedly to only send a participant for the competition but Suzy caught a fever a few days before the competition day. Tina is there to replace her if her condition turns out to be worse.
Suddenly, two boys appears in front of Suzy and Tina whilst they're heading to the competition venue.
"Oh no, I just wished not to meet him and here he is" Suzy whispers to Tina.
Tina sighs. She knows about Suzy and that boy. Honestly she's excited to meet someone she knows at a stranger's place but being in Suzy's position, she hesitates for a couple of moments to either greet him with a smile or coldly ask him to stay away from her and Suzy.
"Hi! Wow, the strongest competitor is here!" exclaimed the boy named Alex. His face is bright with smile and delights. He's way too excited he cannot hide his expression.
"Hi! I just thought about you and here you are. Are you in this(the competition) too?" Tina was about to say something to reply Alex's greeting when Suzy suddenly cut her way.
Tina peeks a glance at Suzy. She's acting cool and faking smile. Tina knows how bad Suzy wishes to never meet him in that school even by coincidence so Alex won't act warm towards her and people will stop staring at her. Alex's popularity at the school is not a joke. Suzy who is officially a girlfriend of Alex for a year has been receiving hates and dislike from Alex's fans. She had only listened to stories Suzy told her before this but it is now proven true by the time she and Suzy enters the school's gate. Even right now, a few girls keep staring at them and whispering to themselves.
"Me? Hell no! But I can show you the venue. Come, follow us" Alex gives signs to his friend who's beside him and they starts heading to somewhere. Without having any choice, the two girls followed.
It's finally Suzy's turn to recite the poems. She breathes in slowly and gathers courage so that she'd do her best onstage and makes her school proud of her. She's actually quite confident for the competition but seeing Alex down the stage rooting her with a huge grin on his face makes her stomach growls harder. The moments the music starts playing, she recites the poem. It is a deep, melancholy yet full of spirit poem to wake the younger generations up from being ignorance about the country. She does her best until suddenly...her sight turns black.
Suzy faints. Her poem is nearly ending when a headache strikes her and makes her collapses on the stage. Tina rushes on the stage and carries Suzy down with the help of three other female students. Many students gather but luckily a teacher blocks them and helps Suzy to be carried to the nurse room.
Suzy is placed on a bed in the room. The teacher who helped them earlier volunteers to find the teacher in charge of them, Miss Lynn. Tina shows her gratitude to the students who helped her and only ask for a towel and a bowl of water because she knows Suzy collapsed due to nervousness, not her fever. It is nothing serious.
15 minutes later, Suzy finally regains her consciousness. She bursts into tears because she is certain that she's going to lose the competition. Tina calms her and gives her a few comforting words. When Suzy's ready, they head out of the room and go to the competition venue.
No one is there. Tina feels weird. She asks Suzy to sit there while she goes searching for Miss Lynn. Suddenly, Suzy's hand is grabbed fiercely to the stage. Feeling weak, she can only follow. She knows it is Alex. She knows Alex's mad because she didn't take care of her health. Then, she's seated on the stage.
Without any notice, Alex puts his face near Suzy's. She's so shocked that she immediately holds someone's hand beside her. It turns out to be Alex putting out dirt from Suzy's hair. Suzy looks around. People are gathering and staring at them. She turns her head to look at the owner of a hand she's holding. It is the boy from earlier who was with Alex when they met in front of the school.
Surprises keeps appearing. Alex suddenly gives Suzy two tablets of medication and puts them on Suzy's mouth.
"What are you doing? People are staring!" Suzy resists the medicines and starts to cry.
"Let them be. Eat this!" said Alex, strictly. Suzy shakes her head. She doesn't like medicines.
Suzy's action turns out to be be an instigator to Alex's wrath. He forced the medicines into Suzy's mouth and makes her drink the water in a bottle he brought with him.
Suzy's feelings are mixed. She, holding someone's hand is wrong. She, being taken care by Alex is way more wrong. She doesn't know how to act. She just keep apologizing and crying all way long.
The end.
Sebenarnya ni mimpi aku. Cumanya ia telah ditukar watak serta environment bersesuaian dengan scenes yang berlaku. Sedang mencari hikmah di sebalik mimpi sepelik ini. Semoga ini cuma permainan syaitan. Yang sedihnya gua mimpi tapi haram muka gua tak dak!! k bye
East High School is holding a festival to celebrate the Independence Day that will be approaching soon. The school is crowded with students, teachers and visitors who come to watch performances and competitions.
Suzy and Tina walked into the school with anxiety. Suzy feels a slight growl in her stomach which means she's nervous. She knows a few people from the school. In fact, the whole school seems like to know her very well with the glares and stares from the students. She's well prepared for this. She's here for a competition, not a fight. Suzy and Tina are the participants from West High School for poems recitation competition. The school is supposedly to only send a participant for the competition but Suzy caught a fever a few days before the competition day. Tina is there to replace her if her condition turns out to be worse.
Suddenly, two boys appears in front of Suzy and Tina whilst they're heading to the competition venue.
"Oh no, I just wished not to meet him and here he is" Suzy whispers to Tina.
Tina sighs. She knows about Suzy and that boy. Honestly she's excited to meet someone she knows at a stranger's place but being in Suzy's position, she hesitates for a couple of moments to either greet him with a smile or coldly ask him to stay away from her and Suzy.
"Hi! Wow, the strongest competitor is here!" exclaimed the boy named Alex. His face is bright with smile and delights. He's way too excited he cannot hide his expression.
"Hi! I just thought about you and here you are. Are you in this(the competition) too?" Tina was about to say something to reply Alex's greeting when Suzy suddenly cut her way.
Tina peeks a glance at Suzy. She's acting cool and faking smile. Tina knows how bad Suzy wishes to never meet him in that school even by coincidence so Alex won't act warm towards her and people will stop staring at her. Alex's popularity at the school is not a joke. Suzy who is officially a girlfriend of Alex for a year has been receiving hates and dislike from Alex's fans. She had only listened to stories Suzy told her before this but it is now proven true by the time she and Suzy enters the school's gate. Even right now, a few girls keep staring at them and whispering to themselves.
"Me? Hell no! But I can show you the venue. Come, follow us" Alex gives signs to his friend who's beside him and they starts heading to somewhere. Without having any choice, the two girls followed.
It's finally Suzy's turn to recite the poems. She breathes in slowly and gathers courage so that she'd do her best onstage and makes her school proud of her. She's actually quite confident for the competition but seeing Alex down the stage rooting her with a huge grin on his face makes her stomach growls harder. The moments the music starts playing, she recites the poem. It is a deep, melancholy yet full of spirit poem to wake the younger generations up from being ignorance about the country. She does her best until suddenly...her sight turns black.
Suzy faints. Her poem is nearly ending when a headache strikes her and makes her collapses on the stage. Tina rushes on the stage and carries Suzy down with the help of three other female students. Many students gather but luckily a teacher blocks them and helps Suzy to be carried to the nurse room.
Suzy is placed on a bed in the room. The teacher who helped them earlier volunteers to find the teacher in charge of them, Miss Lynn. Tina shows her gratitude to the students who helped her and only ask for a towel and a bowl of water because she knows Suzy collapsed due to nervousness, not her fever. It is nothing serious.
15 minutes later, Suzy finally regains her consciousness. She bursts into tears because she is certain that she's going to lose the competition. Tina calms her and gives her a few comforting words. When Suzy's ready, they head out of the room and go to the competition venue.
No one is there. Tina feels weird. She asks Suzy to sit there while she goes searching for Miss Lynn. Suddenly, Suzy's hand is grabbed fiercely to the stage. Feeling weak, she can only follow. She knows it is Alex. She knows Alex's mad because she didn't take care of her health. Then, she's seated on the stage.
Without any notice, Alex puts his face near Suzy's. She's so shocked that she immediately holds someone's hand beside her. It turns out to be Alex putting out dirt from Suzy's hair. Suzy looks around. People are gathering and staring at them. She turns her head to look at the owner of a hand she's holding. It is the boy from earlier who was with Alex when they met in front of the school.
Surprises keeps appearing. Alex suddenly gives Suzy two tablets of medication and puts them on Suzy's mouth.
"What are you doing? People are staring!" Suzy resists the medicines and starts to cry.
"Let them be. Eat this!" said Alex, strictly. Suzy shakes her head. She doesn't like medicines.
Suzy's action turns out to be be an instigator to Alex's wrath. He forced the medicines into Suzy's mouth and makes her drink the water in a bottle he brought with him.
Suzy's feelings are mixed. She, holding someone's hand is wrong. She, being taken care by Alex is way more wrong. She doesn't know how to act. She just keep apologizing and crying all way long.
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| bagi gambar sikit supaya jelas imaginasi korang ya |
The end.
Sebenarnya ni mimpi aku. Cumanya ia telah ditukar watak serta environment bersesuaian dengan scenes yang berlaku. Sedang mencari hikmah di sebalik mimpi sepelik ini. Semoga ini cuma permainan syaitan. Yang sedihnya gua mimpi tapi haram muka gua tak dak!! k bye
Friday, 6 December 2013
Nervous
NERVOUS.
ESOK..BERMULA SATU PENGEMBARAAN
MENUNTUT ILMU JAUH DI PERANTAUAN
4 HARI 3 MALAM
SEORANG
preparation belum lengkap. ilmu addmath dah dilupa. eottokhe? I'll die for sure :(
ESOK..BERMULA SATU PENGEMBARAAN
MENUNTUT ILMU JAUH DI PERANTAUAN
4 HARI 3 MALAM
SEORANG
preparation belum lengkap. ilmu addmath dah dilupa. eottokhe? I'll die for sure :(
Tuesday, 3 December 2013
3 topik gua sumbat dalam 1 post. CC. Anum. Amir
Assalamualaikum
Topik pertama. HARINI BIRTHDAY ANUM!!!
Call dia berjuta-juta kali tak angkat. rasa nak marah pun ada. nasib baiklah birthday kau Anum. Dalam marquee bergambar gua tu, dia adalah yang manis berkaca mata bersama-sama gua. kitorang memang geng. geng pakai buang spectacles. belajar je pakai tak belajar memang haram nak sentuh.
1 benda special yang gua share dengan dia adalah kitorang balas2 surat. penuh dah 1 album gua dengan surat dia. kitorang tak banyak berborak. kebanyakan cerita gua dengan dia share dalam surat je. berahsia betul kitorang.
anyway, dia paling manis dan paling boleh harap bila menegur. 1 kelas dengan Aniq. nampak pemalu tapi cuba lu cerita drama Korea dengan dia. ha..memang taknak berhenti ah.
doa yang selalu gua tulis setiap kali reply surat dia.
MOGA SAMPAI SYURGA.
in shaa Allah. gua harap walau persahabatan kita tak kecoh macam orang lain tapi kau dan aku tahu apa dalam hati masing-masing. all the best for you, Nur Solehah bt Muhammad Salim :D
Topik kedua. AMIR MERDEKA!!!
Satu-satunya kacip yang tua setahun telah merdeka harini. esok dia plan nak datang rumah. tengok Running Man sama-sama.
Ya. tu dia. Amir. Bajet member gua ni jantan je kan. Hey molek sikit. Perempuan ayu tudung labuh lagi. SMKAP boh. Satu sekolah dengan Polar Bear. takpe ke gua mention nama sekolah ni? anyway, dia pakai baju kurung warna kuning bersama gua yang berbaju kurung hijau dalam marquee bergambar tu. nama dia..nama dia...Nur Amira bt Mahamad Norizan. sekarang lu faham mana datang Amir tu kan?
Finally minah dikau habis juga SPM. disebabkan minah ni sekolah agama so dia habis lambat sikitlah. Harini last paper. Bahasa Arab.
similarity yang kitorang share adalah kami manusia yang sombong. tapi dia ok sikitlah sebab duduk asrama kena bergaul. adik-adik bilik, akak-akak bilik dan cadar-cadar dalam bilik takkan nak kerek je kan.
gua? tayah cakap. berapa juta kali gua dengar bisikan halus kata gua sombong. adik-adik, akak-akak, abang-abang serta senior-senior yang tak layak gua panggil abang atau kakak. gua persetankan je. nak buat camne? gua ni baik sebenarnya dorang je tak nampak. hooo kau ujub ni Yana. syirik khafi dah ni
satu benda ah, jumpa dia ni bercerita wah memang tak habis. sekolah lain, cerita pun mesti macam-macam. Amir, yang penting gua jeles lu dah merdeka. my turn pulak next year. yang penting holiday ni akan diluangkan dengan parti Running Man dan drama-drama Korea. HOHOHO
Topik ketiga. ANGIN
next year SPM. okey, parents dah siap siaga nak hantar gua ke KL Jumaat ni. seminar Addmath 3 hari 2 malam. tapi! gua kata gua taknak gi. secara tiba-tiba tadi.
ibu gua muka nak terkejut + marah. gua dah agak. gua saja. gua bengang. apa-apa benda bukannya nak bagitau gua dulu. main bantai je.
masa gua form 1 dulu gua dapat tawaran ke MRSM. bapak gua DAH tolak baru dia bagitau gua. menangis gua lu tau menangis! disebabkan tolakan gua masa Form 1, gua dah takde ruang nak pergi mana-mana tahun ni. see? gelap masa depan gua atas keputusan yang bukan gua buat! menangis tak berlagu gua..
masalah family gua tak patut cerita sini. tapi ni sikit je. sebagai anak sulung, gua lah paling banyak konflik dengan parents gua. pulak gua ni kepala batu sikit.
oklah sebelum gua hujan air mata baik gua tidur. hujan yang dah turun 3 hari berturut2 ni pun dah berhenti kat Muadzam Shah ni. Alhamdulillah. semoga kawasan-kawasan yang dilanda banjir terutamanya di Kuantan tu (ayah Ngah dan ayah De gua stay Kuantan, doakan depa) akan beransur pulih. Nasib baik kawasan si Polar Bear tu tak banjir. kalau tak gua nak tolong gelakkan. eh tak baik betul astaghfirullahalazim.
k bye :D
Topik pertama. HARINI BIRTHDAY ANUM!!!
Call dia berjuta-juta kali tak angkat. rasa nak marah pun ada. nasib baiklah birthday kau Anum. Dalam marquee bergambar gua tu, dia adalah yang manis berkaca mata bersama-sama gua. kitorang memang geng. geng pakai buang spectacles. belajar je pakai tak belajar memang haram nak sentuh.
1 benda special yang gua share dengan dia adalah kitorang balas2 surat. penuh dah 1 album gua dengan surat dia. kitorang tak banyak berborak. kebanyakan cerita gua dengan dia share dalam surat je. berahsia betul kitorang.
anyway, dia paling manis dan paling boleh harap bila menegur. 1 kelas dengan Aniq. nampak pemalu tapi cuba lu cerita drama Korea dengan dia. ha..memang taknak berhenti ah.
doa yang selalu gua tulis setiap kali reply surat dia.
MOGA SAMPAI SYURGA.
in shaa Allah. gua harap walau persahabatan kita tak kecoh macam orang lain tapi kau dan aku tahu apa dalam hati masing-masing. all the best for you, Nur Solehah bt Muhammad Salim :D
Topik kedua. AMIR MERDEKA!!!
Satu-satunya kacip yang tua setahun telah merdeka harini. esok dia plan nak datang rumah. tengok Running Man sama-sama.
Ya. tu dia. Amir. Bajet member gua ni jantan je kan. Hey molek sikit. Perempuan ayu tudung labuh lagi. SMKAP boh. Satu sekolah dengan Polar Bear. takpe ke gua mention nama sekolah ni? anyway, dia pakai baju kurung warna kuning bersama gua yang berbaju kurung hijau dalam marquee bergambar tu. nama dia..nama dia...Nur Amira bt Mahamad Norizan. sekarang lu faham mana datang Amir tu kan?
Finally minah dikau habis juga SPM. disebabkan minah ni sekolah agama so dia habis lambat sikitlah. Harini last paper. Bahasa Arab.
similarity yang kitorang share adalah kami manusia yang sombong. tapi dia ok sikitlah sebab duduk asrama kena bergaul. adik-adik bilik, akak-akak bilik dan cadar-cadar dalam bilik takkan nak kerek je kan.
gua? tayah cakap. berapa juta kali gua dengar bisikan halus kata gua sombong. adik-adik, akak-akak, abang-abang serta senior-senior yang tak layak gua panggil abang atau kakak. gua persetankan je. nak buat camne? gua ni baik sebenarnya dorang je tak nampak. hooo kau ujub ni Yana. syirik khafi dah ni
satu benda ah, jumpa dia ni bercerita wah memang tak habis. sekolah lain, cerita pun mesti macam-macam. Amir, yang penting gua jeles lu dah merdeka. my turn pulak next year. yang penting holiday ni akan diluangkan dengan parti Running Man dan drama-drama Korea. HOHOHO
Topik ketiga. ANGIN
next year SPM. okey, parents dah siap siaga nak hantar gua ke KL Jumaat ni. seminar Addmath 3 hari 2 malam. tapi! gua kata gua taknak gi. secara tiba-tiba tadi.
ibu gua muka nak terkejut + marah. gua dah agak. gua saja. gua bengang. apa-apa benda bukannya nak bagitau gua dulu. main bantai je.
"Kakak, ayah dah daftar awak masuk kem addmath kat KL. pergi ea?" kata ibu gua pada suatu harisebenarnya gua okey je. tapi gua hangin sebab dia DAH daftar baru bagitau gua. bukannya nak tanya dulu ke, bagi penerangan dulu ke, pujuk dulu ke..almaklumlah gua ni allergic dengan nombor. gua tanya preparation pun ibu gua jawab nak taknak je. sedih betul.
masa gua form 1 dulu gua dapat tawaran ke MRSM. bapak gua DAH tolak baru dia bagitau gua. menangis gua lu tau menangis! disebabkan tolakan gua masa Form 1, gua dah takde ruang nak pergi mana-mana tahun ni. see? gelap masa depan gua atas keputusan yang bukan gua buat! menangis tak berlagu gua..
masalah family gua tak patut cerita sini. tapi ni sikit je. sebagai anak sulung, gua lah paling banyak konflik dengan parents gua. pulak gua ni kepala batu sikit.
oklah sebelum gua hujan air mata baik gua tidur. hujan yang dah turun 3 hari berturut2 ni pun dah berhenti kat Muadzam Shah ni. Alhamdulillah. semoga kawasan-kawasan yang dilanda banjir terutamanya di Kuantan tu (ayah Ngah dan ayah De gua stay Kuantan, doakan depa) akan beransur pulih. Nasib baik kawasan si Polar Bear tu tak banjir. kalau tak gua nak tolong gelakkan. eh tak baik betul astaghfirullahalazim.
k bye :D
Monday, 2 December 2013
Syahmi (Part 2) CC. Aniq
Assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatuh waridhwanuh wasadaqallahulazim
*sila jawab full juga ya*
Okey, gua sambung cerita pasal Syahmi.
Bagi gua, gua lebih rapat dengan Syahmi berbanding budak-budak lelaki dalam kelas gua ni sebab dia rapat dengan Polar Bear. Kira ada set 1 kepala gak ah walaupun kepala dia lebih banyak hilang skru berbanding kitorang. Pulak tu kitorang sama-sama masuk Drama KOMSAS. Both of us were actors. Bertambah kamcinglah kami.
Nak dijadikan cerita, gua bergaduh dengan set2 gua. Dulu gua berlima. Dari Form 1 sampai Form 3 set2 tu lah. Tapi naik tahun ni maybe sebab dah lama renggang dan banyak ketidaksefahaman di situ termasuklah dislikes gua yang salah satu nya tak suka couple-couple ni, gua dah tak sebulu dengan mereka. Gua punya sedih dengan tension wa carilah Polar Bear even dia duduk asrama. Kau bayang nak exam ni, bergaduh teruk. Pulak tu gua sorang-sorang. Sedih woo..
Polar Bear cubalah sedaya upaya membantu gua dengan menjadikan Syahmi dan Arep serta sorang lagi member kitorang, Mior pembantu dia kat sekolah. Masa tu rasa bersyukur.
Then...dalam kelas gua dah kecoh2 gua dilantik jadi Ketua PRS. Kerja macam kaunselor so kenalah nasihat orang. Setelah beberapa siri pertolongan, tiba masa dia pulak yang bergaduh. Masa tu dia dah renggang dengan beberapa orang yang dia rapat dan dia start rapat dengan Aniq.
Aniq ni budak kelas sebelah. Dia satu group mentor dengan gua. Dia pun budak drama. Sejak dia rapat dengan Syahmi, masalah gua pun dia tahu. Syahmi memang ah..suka2 hati je dia bagitahu. Dan hari-hari yang berlalu selepas itu memang kitorang 3 rapat.
Tapi gua dah turned out jadi susah nak percaya orang. Gua cukup terkesan lepas apa yang jadi kat gua. Gua sayang member2 gua tapi macam sampah depa buang gua bila gaduh. Walaupun dorang asyik cakap,
gua tetap ambil langkah berhati-hati. Pendek cerita, sampai sekarang gua masih ragu-ragu dorang ikhlas jadikan gua member ke tak. Kalau ya, alhamdulillah. Kalau tak, gua tak rugi sebab bukan gua yang cari dorang.
Enough said. Gua appreciate korang tapi bagi gua masa untuk percaya korang. Anyway, thanks for everything. :)
nah gambar. cilok dari FB.
ok bye :)
*sila jawab full juga ya*
Okey, gua sambung cerita pasal Syahmi.
Bagi gua, gua lebih rapat dengan Syahmi berbanding budak-budak lelaki dalam kelas gua ni sebab dia rapat dengan Polar Bear. Kira ada set 1 kepala gak ah walaupun kepala dia lebih banyak hilang skru berbanding kitorang. Pulak tu kitorang sama-sama masuk Drama KOMSAS. Both of us were actors. Bertambah kamcinglah kami.
Nak dijadikan cerita, gua bergaduh dengan set2 gua. Dulu gua berlima. Dari Form 1 sampai Form 3 set2 tu lah. Tapi naik tahun ni maybe sebab dah lama renggang dan banyak ketidaksefahaman di situ termasuklah dislikes gua yang salah satu nya tak suka couple-couple ni, gua dah tak sebulu dengan mereka. Gua punya sedih dengan tension wa carilah Polar Bear even dia duduk asrama. Kau bayang nak exam ni, bergaduh teruk. Pulak tu gua sorang-sorang. Sedih woo..
Polar Bear cubalah sedaya upaya membantu gua dengan menjadikan Syahmi dan Arep serta sorang lagi member kitorang, Mior pembantu dia kat sekolah. Masa tu rasa bersyukur.
"Baiknya kawan aku ni" bisik hati kecil gua
Then...dalam kelas gua dah kecoh2 gua dilantik jadi Ketua PRS. Kerja macam kaunselor so kenalah nasihat orang. Setelah beberapa siri pertolongan, tiba masa dia pulak yang bergaduh. Masa tu dia dah renggang dengan beberapa orang yang dia rapat dan dia start rapat dengan Aniq.
Aniq ni budak kelas sebelah. Dia satu group mentor dengan gua. Dia pun budak drama. Sejak dia rapat dengan Syahmi, masalah gua pun dia tahu. Syahmi memang ah..suka2 hati je dia bagitahu. Dan hari-hari yang berlalu selepas itu memang kitorang 3 rapat.
Tapi gua dah turned out jadi susah nak percaya orang. Gua cukup terkesan lepas apa yang jadi kat gua. Gua sayang member2 gua tapi macam sampah depa buang gua bila gaduh. Walaupun dorang asyik cakap,
"Cerita ni cuma kau (gua), aku (Syahmi or Aniq) dengan dia (Syahmi or Aniq) je tahu"
gua tetap ambil langkah berhati-hati. Pendek cerita, sampai sekarang gua masih ragu-ragu dorang ikhlas jadikan gua member ke tak. Kalau ya, alhamdulillah. Kalau tak, gua tak rugi sebab bukan gua yang cari dorang.
Enough said. Gua appreciate korang tapi bagi gua masa untuk percaya korang. Anyway, thanks for everything. :)
nah gambar. cilok dari FB.
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| rambut dorang-sila gelak. Aniq Akmal Anaqi bin Azizi |
Saturday, 30 November 2013
I'm finally admitting that I'm regretting what I've done!
It's all about him
I'm interfering in his life
Why bother?
Credits of FRIEND
think so
ended up
knowing something
too big for him, too big for me
it might be true, yes no doubt
people have been telling the same thing over and over
I close my ears but I have eyes
I knew it
I don't want to admit it
worse, it might turned out to be wrong
why concern?
nothing..it's just too big for him, too big for me
I trust what people say
mind goes blank
heart goes white
it's a shocking yet saddening truth
weird, I'm just feeling weird
even if my guess was wrong
my heart says I'll long for you
and if it ever be the truth
I'll long more for you
Good bye for now.
I don't know what's waiting tomorrow but your decision determines it
I just hope..this farewell...won't be this sad
Cuz no matter how hard I'm enduring
I'll be longing..for you...
I REGRET TALKING ABOUT YOUR CRUSH.
I'm interfering in his life
Why bother?
Credits of FRIEND
think so
ended up
knowing something
too big for him, too big for me
it might be true, yes no doubt
people have been telling the same thing over and over
I close my ears but I have eyes
I knew it
I don't want to admit it
worse, it might turned out to be wrong
why concern?
nothing..it's just too big for him, too big for me
I trust what people say
mind goes blank
heart goes white
it's a shocking yet saddening truth
weird, I'm just feeling weird
even if my guess was wrong
my heart says I'll long for you
and if it ever be the truth
I'll long more for you
Good bye for now.
I don't know what's waiting tomorrow but your decision determines it
I just hope..this farewell...won't be this sad
Cuz no matter how hard I'm enduring
I'll be longing..for you...
I REGRET TALKING ABOUT YOUR CRUSH.